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Here Goes A New Life Chapter

So Once spring break hit I knew that I needed to take the time to spend time with him for how much time he had been putting into talking me and how much he seemed to like me I wanted to know for myself how he felt. So I went over to town to see him on the Friday of spring break, I found out that night that spring break was going to be extended another week for the both of us. So I was sitting there with him on the couch watching Netflix, I know this sounds bad but it wasn’t all that happened was hand holding and cuddles. But when I decided that I was going home for the night I gave home a hug and that’s when I had realized that for some reason he and got really nervous standing there with me. So I stood there locked in his hug I had realized that he didn’t want me to leave for fear that I didn’t like him the way that he liked me. So I went out of the box, against the grain and manned up and kissed him. He then was calm again and was happy again. While I feared that I had fucked up and that I had messed up my chance with him and I REALLY liked him.

This is what personal happiness looks like

The next day he asked me about hanging out again with me. Tuesday night as I was telling my mom about this she said just stay in town since you have to work the next day. I don’t think that she realized that this was going to do the trick. So I got my things and headed for town now I had spent time with him in the past I was still nervous because he had asked me to go for a walk with him. So in the times of COVID-19 quarantine he come down and got in my car and we went to DQ and went back to his apartment and ate. When he wanted to go for his walk it started to rain, it made him a little sad. But I told him that it was okay and we decided to watch a movie instead. As we sat there next to each other and held hands and spent time together I learned that in his past relationships he never got to experience what a nap and cuddle buddy was. Well I had already told him that I was spending the night so I told him that I would show him what he was missing. He then decided to dance around asking me out but I decided that this one was on him not me. I said YES of course. But that fact that he had never got the chance to actually be happy with someone else and that I got to made me so happy and couldn’t wait to see what life would bring.

I got home the next day to learn that there was a bunch of family coming over to drink in are shop. Well in the most casual way ever my mom hinted hard on the fact he should come out. This was probably the best thing ever and I thank my mom for what she has done for me because both her and my little sister have said that I have never been this happy in my life.

This just goes to show that some times the best things come at the most unexpected times. I get to be who I am with him and he doesn’t judge me he laughs with me.

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Life Update Time

This week has been all over the place. Lots of stress, lack of sleep, being late, and learning things about new people in my life. In the past week I was late for class once because I woke up late, I ended up being 10 minutes late but still I push myself to do better. To add to that I my sleep problems decided that they needed to be extra this week and keep me up all night but I learned some things during that time so it was kind of a win. Lastly, so far this year I have made many new friends most of them being guys but with the new friends that I have made I have learned a lot about myself while I was learning about others and how they feel towards me and how I feel at the same time.

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Its Been 7 Days

A couple of days ago I went out and got new work boots I didn’t have plans on getting new ones yet but they were worth it. I got a $100 pair of square toe Ariat boots, if you know me I am more of a point toe kind of person but for that price i’ll take em.

A fun picture from a fun night with my lovely best friend ❤

In the past 7 days of my friend being gone at basic iv’e struggled with it but yesterday it really hit hard. I was sitting in the accounting room waiting for class to start while drinking a energy drink that she had started me in high school in pain in my new boots, that reminded me of her. Later on in the day I was in my car looking at Facebook and her mom shared some group pictures that were taken at her fort that she was in. Then when I got home I was sitting in my room watching TV and I thought to my self and thought why don’t I write her a letter. As I was writing her this letter it happened AGAIN I started crying. Now i’m not one to cry a lot but dang it hit so hard yesterday that I was having a tough time not driving to her house to sit there with her brother and her dog to then cry what would have been like the 4th or 5th time.

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Seriously Struggling

In the past week I have had many new experiences some of those being a friend leaving for basic training for National Guard, and somethings for college are just not going my way.

My high school best friend left for training for the Guards and im really happy for her and her decision but at the same time 3 months without being able to call her at 2 AM over nothing is going to suck.

The whole college thing, well i’m pretty sure that what is happening is something that I can fix with a conversion with the teacher and my laptop.

Something to give you a laugh. I downloaded TikTok the other day… I’m a little addicted … OOPS!!